Leah's Thoughts
Monday, February 28, 2005
Good start to the week and my diet
So my week is starting out a lot better than I had expected, considering the crap that I have been going through...

Why do I have to make a decision, but you don't? I just have to live with the fact that you can't...right

...oops, that just slipped out.

Anyway, back to my happy day. So as I mentioned, I found this program to track my weight loss, since I haven't been paying much attention to what I have been eating. So the good thing about this program, is that I can watch what I'm eating, and don't eat too much bad stuff. Well today is day 1. I logged in my breakfast and the food I brought with me for lunch, before I left for work this morning, so I know I still have about 700 calories that I can eat. Surprisingly, I'm not that hungry. The bad thing is, is that my hernia is acting up a little from lack of food. Hopefully it gets use to this.

I also went to the doctors this morning to get more prescripstions. Finally a good doctors visit. We talked a little about what I had been up to, since it has been 5 years since I had seen this doctor. The one thing I remember about her, is that she gives free samples. So for the prescriptions that I was picking up, I saved more than $240. I say more than, because my one set of pills is $80 per month, and the samples that I got cost more than that, but the doctor wasn't sure how much more.

I am also moving along quite well with this test outline that I have been writing. It is taking me more time than I would have liked, but it is only because Word is so slow. I write a test, then the respected result, then I hvae to sit for about 30 seconds for the computer to catch up to me. What a pain.

Weight Loss
Well I have changed my attitude towards this whole weight loss thing, for the most part. Seeing as how I love working with software, and graphs and stuff, I found this great program called FitDay where I can keep track of the food I eat, the exercise I do, and my weight and measurments. I am hoping that this will keep me on track so I can start looking and feeling better soon.

Saturday, February 26, 2005
Too fat?
Here are some sure signs that you are getting too fat

  1. Your parents have offered to pay for you to go to someone, like Jenny
  2. Your boyfriend isn't interested in you anymore
  3. Your hernia keeps acting up

Funny thing is, is that I haven't gained any weight, just haven't lost it. Welcome to my life.

So I guess I will have to pick which diet I want to go on. If anyone has used a diet that worked, please let me know.

Friday, February 25, 2005
What do you do...
when your parents plan a "romantic" evening, and they basically warned you about it? Well you plan an evening out. Since I don't have any invitations to do anything else, I guess it will be a night out by myself. I will probably hit the gym, then the mall, and probably the movies. (The theater is in the mall) I may also pick up a snack, as the movies that I am thinking of seeing don't start till about 10pm. I just can't decide on what movies I want to go see, there are a few out that I would like to see. Here are the ones I'm considering Cursed, Boogeyman, Hide and Seek, and maybe Hitch.

Note: I also welcome company for the night, or an invite to do something else. This is just my plan if nothing else comes up.

Monday, February 21, 2005
Another Relaxing Weekend
This weekend was quite relaxing. I got to spend time with an old friend, show with the girls, spend time with my little brother, have coffee with my grandparents, and get some scrap booking done. Wow, now that I write it all down, it doesn't seem to be too relaxing, but it actually was. :)

Saturday I headed to my friends house, and we went for coffee. It was nice to catch up. I met his girlfriend while I was there as well. Not too sure how I feel about her, but if he's happy, what can I do?

Yesterday, my mom and her friend were going shopping for a couple of hours, and she asked if I wanted to go with them. Of course I did. :) It was a great shopping trip. We headed over to Cambridge, my mom got me a new dresser, it matches my room perfectly. Ok, it isn't really for me, just for me to use while I use the room. When I move out, the dresser stays here. I ended up getting a new gym bag, sweats for the gym, and three scents for my diffuser, all for around $30. I love sales. The pants and bag were on sale, and then had an additional 30% off. What a great deal.

I also got new shoes this weekend, from the store my grandmother works at. They were only $3, and they are almost brand new.

I was also able to get 3 pages done for my Europe scrapbook. Apparently I have 140 pictures from that trip, with at most 3 pictures per page, I will have to do another 43 pages to complete it. I don't think that I will be using all of my pictures though. Once the entire thing is complete I will be posting it.

Thursday, February 17, 2005
System Install Part 1.5 of 2
Yesterday, I went and finally bought my speakers. The great thing about it, is that they were marked down from $180 to $89. YAY for me. I calculated it yesterday, and with all the sales, and with me installing my own deck, I am saving about $250 on everything I got. I would have saved about $300 if I had enough guts to install the speakers myself. Instead I will leave that to the professionals. So next Wednesday, I will finally have rear speakers in my car. I am so excited.

Side note: a friend of mine has been posting in her blog about her condition and keeping track of the medication she has been taking. I think I am going to start doing that, as I would like to keep track of my condition, see if I can find patters as to what causes it and when I take medication for it. So any font that is in orange isn't really part of the post, just for me to keep track of stuff.
So this morning, my hernia was acting up as soon as I got up. I decided to take Nexium to relieve the pain for a couple of days. (One pill usually lasts about 2 days)

Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Random thoughts of the day...
I have so many thoughts running through my head right now, and I don't really feel like writing multiple posts, so they will all be added to one.

  1. "Expect the unexpected". Sorry, I'm not sure who said this, and since I am at work, I don't really have the time to search for it either. Despite my thought that I was going to have a crappy Valentine's Day, it turned out to be perfect, exactly what I wanted. :)

  2. After weeks of waiting, I am finally heading over to the electronics store to look at speakers for my car. Maybe they will even install them today, providing I find some that I like. My dad has offered to pick me up from the store, and drop me back off after work. Isn't that sweet. It's handy, because it is just down the street from work, maybe a 5 minute drive.

  3. At work today, we are running more performance tests. We are seeing how many clients we can get to run on one server. Well on the third try, I got a lovely error message that said the server was going to close. Lets consider this message... there is only an OK button, and the server doesn't actually close until I press this button. Who would be stupid enough to click it while they still needed the server running? Not I, lol, we kept it running for a good 10 more minutes until we were done with it. Silly error message.

  4. Candy Hearts... after watching Futurama on Monday, I decided to pick myself up some candy hearts. You know the ones with the messages on them. Although I am at work, I have had the chance to read most of them before the message comes off. For the most part they are sweet messages, but I don't think it is appropriate to write Now Now on candy. Unless of course you are selling it more in an adult store. And do you know how many blank ones I have been getting, at least 3 now. So what does it mean when you get a blank candy heart, even more importantly, what does it mean when you get an empty fortune cookie?

Tuesday, February 15, 2005
My Birthday in Ottawa???
Last night I got an email update from my friend G, who is turning 19 on Feb. 25th (exactly one week before my 24th birthday). Since she is heading to B.C. for reading week, she will be celebrating her birthday on the 4th (my birthday). Her whole family is heading up to Ottawa to visit her, and to celebrate, and she has asked if I would like to come too. This actually sounds like fun. I am still thinking about it, but as of right now, it sounds like a good plan.

That and I have to talk to my parents about it, to see if they would let me go. lol I know I shouldn't have to ask permission, but G. has also mentioned that maybe my mom could come as well.

Now, what do you get a girl who's turning 19?

Monday, February 14, 2005
"I knew when we first met that you were going to be someone special in my life.

You have always been there for me when I needed you. Your support has made me a stronger person, and has helped me get through a difficult time. I know that you are willing to do anything for me, and that you will always care about me.

You have brought a level of happiness to my life that I didn't think anyone could bring. I enjoy every moment that we are together, and think about you whenever we are apart.

You are the most important thing in my life.

I think that we were meant to be together to share in each other's lives, and I am greatful to whatever brought us together"

Funny how things change so easily, isn't it?

Sunday, February 13, 2005
Updates for the next month
There are going to be two options for the next month, with updates in my blog.

  1. I am going to not update it, and keep everything in a list somewhere so I have enough to talk to you about to allow for a visit.
  2. I am going to continue to update this with everything that is going on in my life, because I have given up on the dissolution that I will ever get another visit.

What's so wrong with me?
How come everyone out there finds true love and happiness, except for me. There is no one out there that will ever love me. What's so wrong with me, that there is no one for me? What did I do that was so horrible, that I have fucked up my fate, and made it so I will forever be unhappy?

Single on Valentine's Day
Now I will know what it feels like to be single on Valentine's Day. I am as close as you can possibly get to being single. Having a "boyfriend" who doesn't want to see you because you can't come up with something to talk about, since he can't have sex with you. It's just like not having anyone around.

Well Happy Valentine's Day to you too!!

I only wish they could take your gift back, guess I'll just have to keep it myself

And how much do you want to bet that since we are technically not seeing each other, that by next weekend he will be seeing someone else? And if that does happen, you won't have to worry about making anymore decisions about us!

Friday, February 11, 2005
No happy ending for me
So what do you do when your so called boyfriend tells you he doesn't care if he sees you again? Well we are about to find out, aren't we. Good thing I have that bottle of alcohol stashed in my bathroom. Maybe I will go for a walk out back and see what I can find.

update: I am not dropping your shit off at your house, if you want it, you can come and get it. I will leave it outside for you.

Oh yeah, I wrote this for you, but I think it is a little more appropriate now:

Girlfriend is a bitch
I can't stand her anymore
It's already done.

I'm not as stupid as you think I am... I got your hint.

Thursday, February 10, 2005
This is sad... (work related)
Once I am done the current project that I am working on, I will be in charge of my own product release (which has to be released before Feb 27th, I think). So today I was handed the specs to review. I checked out the history, and this review that I am doing, is review #14. You would think that at this point that things should be correct, and I wouldn't have much work to do, but oh no... there are two main sections that I have reviewed so far, and both have an Add and Edit section. For the most part you would think that these sections would be identical, or maybe I'm just way off base here, but for the one section the Add says that we will allow the user to add the same item more than once, but in the Edit, there will be an error message telling the user they are only allowed to add the item once. THEY ARE THE SAME THINGS AND SHOULD ALLOW THE USER TO EITHER ADD THE SAME ITEM ONCE, OR MORE THAN ONCE. Not allow on one screen and not allow on the other.

There are other places that aren't the same either, but should be. This is going to take a lot longer than I had originally thought to get this all proper. I honestly can't believe that my father reviewed this, and he didn't catch any of this. Maybe no one else is being as picky as I am, well that's what happens when you give something to someone in QC, they are going to look at every little detail to make sure it is correct. I have emailed my manager to make sure that I am not totally off the wall here in thinking that these sections should be the same. You would think that Copy and Paste would speed things up a little, guess not. I'm not sure what he is going to say about it, only because he is the one that wrote it. Plus we need this document accepted so we can start programming this. HA I am suppose to be getting the finished product some time next week, I really don't think that they waited for the specs to be accepted to start, which means that some parts of the program are going to be wrong Man, this company needs some work on how things work around here.

Well back to reading...

No title
You know, sometimes I just have to learn to keep my mouth shut. If I didn't bring stupid things up, then we wouldn't have this problem, now would we? I just need to learn how to handle things, and not let any of it bother me. This way I would have nothing to fight about, and we could both just be happy.

Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Is Valentine's Day too overrated?

While at the gym last night, I ran into some friends of mine, who were all talking about the upcoming holiday Valentine's Day and what everyone was planning. One of my friends piped up and said that it had become too commercial, and there was no real point to it. As I have never had a real Valentine's Day, I really wanted to find out the story behind this day and see what we are really celebrating.

I took the following story from here. There is also more information on that page, so feel free to look over there.

Valentine's Day started in the time of the Roman Empire. In ancient Rome, February 14th was a holiday to honor Juno. Juno was the Queen of the Roman Gods and Goddesses. The Romans also knew her as the Goddess of women and marriage. The following day, February 15th, began the Feast of Lupercalia.

The lives of young boys and girls were strictly separate. However, one of the customs of the young people was name drawing. On the eve of the festival of Lupercalia the names of Roman girls were written on slips of paper and placed into jars. Each young man would draw a girl's name from the jar and would then be partners for the duration of the festival with the girl whom he chose. Sometimes the pairing of the children lasted an entire year, and often, they would fall in love and would later marry.

Under the rule of Emperor Claudius II Rome was involved in many bloody and unpopular campaigns. Claudius the Cruel was having a difficult time getting soldiers to join his military leagues. He believed that the reason was that roman men did not want to leave their loves or families. As a result, Claudius cancelled all marriages and engagements in Rome. The good Saint Valentine was a priest at Rome in the days of Claudius II. He and Saint Marius aided the Christian martyrs and secretly married couples, and for this kind deed Saint Valentine was apprehended and dragged before the Prefect of Rome, who condemned him to be beaten to death with clubs and to have his head cut off. He suffered martyrdom on the 14th day of February, about the year 270. At that time it was the custom in Rome, a very ancient custom, indeed, to celebrate in the month of February the Lupercalia, feasts in honor of a heathen god. On these occasions, amidst a variety of pagan ceremonies, the names of young women were placed in a box, from which they were drawn by the men as chance directed.

The pastors of the early Christian Church in Rome endeavourer to do away with the pagan element in these feasts by substituting the names of saints for those of maidens. And as the Lupercalia began about the middle of February, the pastors appear to have chosen Saint Valentine's Day for the celebration of this new feast. So it seems that the custom of young men choosing maidens for valentines, or saints as patrons for the coming year, arose in this way.

With reading this history, what do you think of this day? I agree that it is becoming way too commercial, but isn't it still a day to be with the one you love? Some might say that you should honor and cherish that love everyday, but for most of us, we know that these things are taken for granted. Wouldn't it be nice for one day everyone reflects on their relationships, and is thankful that they have someone in their life that makes them feel so happy? So what are your opinions on this day, love it or hate it?

I myself had the hole night planned to show my man how much he really means to me, but now that is spoiled. I guess this year will be no different that all the other Valentine days

Monday, February 07, 2005
System Install Part 1 of 2
The plan for this weekend was to at least buy the rear speakers for my car, if not, get them installed. Future Shop had a pair of speakers for $50 and was told on the phone that installation was only to be $39, even though there were no factory speakers put in my car in the first place. I had also considered a place here that I have heard great reviews about. There the cheapest speakers where $90, but installation was only $45. So I decided that Future Shop would be the way to go, although, not 100% sure how well there service/speakers would be. Saturday I was planning on going to get the speakers, and was checking online to make sure they still had stock in, when I noticed that they were having a huge sale. I looked at the speakers, which were $2 off. Wow, big savings. Then I noticed, the original deck that I wanted was on sale. It was $250, down from $350. I decided that I would get it, since the other deck I was looking at was $300. While at Future Shop, I found a nicer pair of speakers that I liked for $80, still cheaper than the store here. I talked the sales guy, to double check the price for installation, and he told me that since they would have to cut a hole in the back of my car, that they consider it "Custom Work", which is $25 per 1/2 hour, on top of the $39. Now it is going to cost me $90 to have the speakers installed there. Forget that. So I bought the radio, and was also able to convince the sales guy that I really didn't need a harness for the radio, for another $20.

Well it is Monday morning, and J. and I have successfully installed my new cd/mp3 deck in my car. Really the only hard part is connecting all the wires. Oh yeah, we also found the speaker wires in the back, so it shouldn't be too much work, for someone else, to install speakers there.

This morning, I was planning on driving my car to work, since we were taking two cars, so I was up till about 2:30am making an MP3 CD to play in it. It took me 2 hours, only because my burning software kept freezing. I was a little disappointed to find out that I was taking my father to work this morning as well, which means, no music at all. To top it off, we took the truck to work, so I can't even go shopping for my new speakers during lunch today. I guess I will have to go over there on Wednesday. Hopefully by this weekend, I will have rear speakers in my car, and will have listened to my new MP3 CD that I made. Does anyone know of some good MP3 sorting software? Mine are in desperate need of a good sorting.

(Part 2 will be the speaker install, hopefully later this week)

Thursday, February 03, 2005
Worst night of my life... well worst hernia attack ever
Warning: this might be a little graphic
I went to bed around 12:30am last night, with a bit a heart burn (the only real symptom I get from my hernia, unless it gets real bad). Around 2:30am, I wake up to a strange burning, it is not where I usually get the burn, but in my wind pipe. So now I have stomach acid in my wind pipe. I spent the next 1/2 trying to cough it up, which is not nice either. I finally got to sleep around 3:30am, and I was happy that I didn't have any symptoms in my stomach from my hernia, and the burning was almost gone from my wind pipe. So I am a little tired, and a little sick feeling this morning from all of this. This morning I decided that I have to take one of my hernia pills, to make sure this doesn't happen again.

For the most part, I am ok this morning, just can't take deep breaths. Hopefully that is the only thing bad thing that came out of all of this.

Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Car Troubles...
Ok, not really troubles with the car itself, but with the sound system. Ever since I got my car, the sound has been somewhat poor. Recently I found out that there are no rear speakers in my car, even though they are a standard feature. Before Christmas, I noticed that the CD player in my car has troubles working when it gets cold. The radio works, but the CD player won't play the first couple of songs on a CD. I was talking to my mom, and made mention that I wanted to replace it. I got some money for Christmas, which my mom has mentioned that she thought I could use it for a new deck for my car. I have been looking around, and found a few I like, but haven't really decided on the one that I want yet. This morning as I was driving to work, I figured I should check the front speakers as well, to make sure they were working properly. Also just in case there was a problem, I can get new ones when I am getting the rear ones. Good thing they are working, because I don't really want to have to replace those too.

So with the original deck, rear speakers, and installation, it was going to come to about $550. I think I have decided that I am going to go to the car audio place down the street and have them install my rear speakers. Hopefully they have a cheap pair of speakers, since it will cost $45 to have them installed, since they have to cut a hole in the back of my car to put them in. I will most likely be getting my deck from Best Buy, because they have all of the ones that I am interested in, but I don't know how much they charge for installation. I figure I can just install the deck myself, as I have done it before, and this one doesn't look any harder than the last install I did. Lets just hope it takes less than 3 hours this time. lol

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