Leah's Thoughts
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Bored at work...
Well let me tell you, a day at work when you can't do your job, is really boring. It's not that I can't do my job, it's more that my boss told me to stop testing this build. Hmm, I test software, that's what I do. So here I am not testing software. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to track my hours, because I also can't add anymore hours at the current state of the project. That means that eventhough I did a bit of testing of it this morning, I can't track that. I have to come up with something else that I worked on today, and extend it to cover the hours I used to work on the project. Wow, no wonder things aren't efficient around here.

Well I told myself that I wasn't going to complain about work, at least not about the projects and the processes that we do, so that's all the complaining that you are going to get. Oh that an it is quite warm in my office today, which makes me wonder if it is this warm outside. We really should take tomorrow off and sit outside. Well there is no point to us being here, now is there?

Sunday, March 27, 2005
I'm done
I can no longer continue this. I can no longer lie to myself and my family. It hurts too much to lie for you. I refuse to lie for you anymore. The lying stops NOW!



It feels like it has been forever since my last real post on here. I don't really call updating my Johnny Depp count an update, although I ended up watching two movies in the same weekend.

There have been a few changes in my life, and I feel that I also need to make some changes. Right now, my job is still bugging me. I really am starting to enjoy it for the most part, except my manager. All of my ideas are just dismissed, but when then come from one of the other girls they aren't. At first I was going to consider waiting until September to see what was going on in part of my life before I made any major decisions, but there is no need to wait anymore. The decisions have been made, and I'm not going anywhere. My mom has mentioned that a company in the city I went to school is looking for QC people. Too bad they are looking for Unix knowledge as well. I think I am still going to apply to it, as it won't hurt. The sooner I can find another job, the sooner I can move out on my own, and really start my life. Since most of the other people who are/were in my life, have also decided to start their life, I feel that it is my time as well.

Not that I really want to move back to the city where I went to school, for some reason I don't really like the city. Oh well. I guess if I find a job there, then I will just have to move there. At least the rent is cheaper there than the city that I really want to live in.

Of course this is all probably not going to happen until after my sugery. Both of my parents think that I should have it, so we are going to talk to my aunt today who had it to find out if she had the same thing that I did and if she recommends it.

Update: my aunt's surgery went well, but since her hernia was so bad, they couldn't do a routine surgery on her. My mother thinks it would be a good idea for me to get mine fixed now, so I don't have to go through what my aunt did. I still don't know how I feel about it. Guess I will just have to go talk to my doctor about it, then my parents some more, since there is noone else to talk to about it.

Friday, March 25, 2005
Johnny Depp Films
Since I have been quite upset for the last while, I have decided to start a quest to see all of Johnny Depp's films. Below is a list of all of them, including a few to open this year. All the ones in red I have already seen, yes I have a long way to go. The two in green are ones that I already have plans to see.

Pirates of the Caribbean 2 (2006)
• American History X/Blow (2005)
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005)
• Tim Burton's Corpse Bride (2005)
• Finding Neverland (2004)
Secret Window (2004)
• Lost in La Mancha (2003)
• Once Upon a Time in Mexico (2003)
Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl (2003)
• Blow (2001)
• From Hell (2001)
• The Man Who Cried (2001)
• Before Night Falls (2000)
• Chocolat (2000)
• The Ninth Gate (2000)
The Astronaut's Wife (1999)
Sleepy Hollow (1999)
• Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas (1998)
• Donnie Brasco (1997)
• What's Eating Gilbert Grape? (1997)
• Cannes Man (1996)
• Dead Man (1996)
Don Juan de Marco (1995)
• Nick of Time (1995)
• Arizona Dream (1994)
• Ed Wood (1994)
Benny & Joon (1993)
• What's Eating Gilbert Grape (1993)
• Freddy's Dead: The Final Nightmare (1991)
Cry-Baby (1990)
Edward Scissorhands (1990)
• Platoon (1986)
• Private Resort (1985)
• A Nightmare on Elm Street (1984)

Tuesday, March 15, 2005
I need a vacation.
My hernia is having a hell of a week this week, well this week and last week. This week I got some bad news, which I knew was coming, but is harder to face when given it straight up. On top of that, the program that I am in charge of releasing, was looking great. Most of the bugs we had found were fixed, and we were expecting the next build tomorrow some time. Well I managed to uncover a huge issue, which means database reconfiguration and program reconfiguration. So I don't know when I will see the next build, and there is nothing for the girls to be doing.

I am seriously thinking that I need some time away, by myself. Maybe when my parents go away, I will just take a few days off of work, and hide at home. Maybe I will decide to reward myself, once we release this progarm, and head to England for a week or two. Then when I get back, I can start looking for a job and an apartment, because I really need to get out on my own.

Update: if one more person asks me why I'm not going with my "bf" or mentions the word baby, I am going to break down. I'm not pregnant, but it seems that everyone in my family seems to think that I should be.

Friday, March 11, 2005
Rent One small story line
As I listened to the soundtrack on the way to work today, I really listened...
I noticed that the love story between Roger and Mimi was the same as my current love story. The only difference is, is that the Roger and Mimi story goes a little futher than my life is right now. Here is a short synopsis of the story between Roger and Mimi.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Well Rent is coming to the theater near me, and I really want to go. I was checking online again today to see if I could get two better seats together, but still nothing. Seeing as this is my favourite musical, I really don't want to sit at the back of the theater. It would be like listening to it in my car, only $126 cheaper.

I was talking to my mom about it, and the last time we went, we got single tickets, which you can usually get to be a lot closer than double tickets. She says she will go with me, but I really wanted someone else to go with me. Guess that's not going to happen now. How can you go and watch a musical about love, and losing love, when I know that in a couple of months I am going to lose... well I can't talk about that... I'm just going to lose. In a way I have already lost, which is probably why I can't even listen to the soundtrack without crying. I just wanted to spend this night with someone special to me, but it has lost all meaning now that I know I'm not special in his life. I guess I will just have to pray that Rent comes to town again in the future, and that I have someone who sees me as special.

Monday, March 07, 2005
What do I want from my relationship?
I have been giving this some thought, and what does anyone really want from a relationship? Why do people search for someone else? Some of the times it's just for sex, other times it is for a relationship. At first we were just for sex, but something happened, feelings happened. You made me feel not only like someone you could have sex with, but someone you really cared about. You are the first person I have been in a relationship to ever make me feel like that. When we are together, everything seems right. We laugh, and goof around together, and we try to make each other happy. What I really want from this relationship is for things to go back to the way they were when we saw each other everyday. We only really fight when we are apart. I want this feeling that I have for you to never stop. I want you in my life to be my other half. I know we have only been together for a little over a year, and you are leaving to go to school, but I would like to be with you for as long as possible. Having you in my life, makes my life better. And being in your arms, makes me feel like everything is ok.

I don't really know what else to say on the matter, except that you are the first person who has really shown me what a real relationship is to be, and I want to hold onto our relationship and make it better.

I would really like to know what your answer is to this question as well.

Friday, March 04, 2005
Funny Story Fridays
Since I haven't really been updating my blog on a regular basis anymore, I figured I would start Funny Story Fridays so I update it at least once a week. Just a little side note, that my boyfriend wan agree with, most of my funny stories are only funny to me. lol At least it is something to read.

To mark today as being the first Funny Story Friday (and also my 24th birthday) I have two stories for you.

Story #1: How to Piss Off the Boss

This first story is about out I.T. guy here at work. Now I have tons of stories about him, but this is the most recent one. (Keep in mind we pay this guy to do I.T. for our company) Last weekend, we switched all the computers to a new server. All of the computer names changed, which meant that there were a lot of things that changed on the computers themselves. Now my father, the boss, likes his computer a certain way, and if you change it he gets mad. He was away for most of this week, so didn't see his computer until yesterday. Most of us realized that all of the settings we had setup on our programs would be removed, and set to the default. Being that my father doesn't know much about changing settings, he just wants his computer to work the way it should, he was not impressed with the way his computer was working when he first logged on. So he asked the I.T. guy first where his mapped network drives were. Mr. IT said that they had tried their best to make sure that all of that had been restored to the settings the user had before the move. So my father asked if he had written down where all of the his network drives , and the reply was yes. Several minutes later he shows up with two huge binders to show my father the list. He opened it to the mapped network drive, and all it said was something along the lines of "Great care was taken to ensure that the mapped network drives were taken care of". That's it. Nothing about where anyone's pointed to. Boy was my dad mad last night. So after using some of the Microsoft Office products, he noticed that his settings were no longer set. Again, he asked Mr. IT why they weren't set. Mr. IT explained that you can't save the settings in a program. My father then proceeded to ask if he had set all the computer up to the company default. Mr. IT tells him that all of the computers were set back to the company default. To which my dad asked what the company default was. Mr. IT, not knowing much about what he is doing in the first place says that the company defaults are mainly just the defaults that are setup when the program installs. Again my father was really mad. And I still wonder why they even keep this guy around. At least now they have gotten him an assistant, well more like she tesll him what to do, but at least we can make sure things are being done correctly.

Story #2: My Crazy Mother
A little background for this story. Every year, the first week of March, my father goes to a conference in the states for the company. And every year he misses my birthday. One day on the way to work, he mentions that he will be home on the 2nd of March (my bd is the 4th). I was so happy and said, "finallly I will have both parents home on my birthday". The last time this happened I tured 16, 8 years ago. So my mom's reply was "I won't be here for your birthday, I'm going away". We later found out that she is actually going away tomorrow, and will be here for my birthday. Well my dad thought that since my mother wasn't going to be here for my birthday, and she was going away Saturday, that my birthday was actually tomorrow. So this morning, as my mom was singing Happy Birthday, my dad looked at me said, but it's not till tomorrow. We both looked at him and said nope, today. So he pointed out to my mother that she said she was going away for my birthday, and that she wasn't going away till tomorrow. My mother, getting confused again, looks at him and says "I said I was going away on the weekend, not today, right?" As she looks at me, I of course clerify that she is wrong (again). She just turns away and mumbles something like "yup, I'm crazy, I have no idea what I said", which is her usual response, when she is wrong.

So that's it. I hope I wasted enough of your time, and you got at least a small smile out of these stories. I will try to find more interesting ones for next week.

Bye for now...

Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Great Game Cube Game
I have been looking at getting this game for a while now, and this weekend, I finally decided to pick it up. It was only $17.99 (used), but it is still a great price for a GC game. I don't think that I have ever paid more than $25 for a GC game. I refuse. lol

So the game I purchased is Eternal Darkness. I had read a few reviews on it, and people either loved it or hated it. Isn't that really the case with every game?? The cool thing about this game, is that it was created right here in Canada.

Basically this game is a combination of puzzle solving and monster fighting, sort of like Tomb Raider, with magic spells. I do have one beef with the game, speed. For the most part the game is normal speed, but if there are more than 2 bad guys around, so slow down. It wouldn't be so bad if they slowed down as well, but for the most part, only you slow down. Another thing that bugs me, that I actually thought was neat at the beginning, is that the more you get hurt, the slower you run. It's a neat feature, except when you are close to dying, and you have to get away from the monster or you are toast.

This game is fast becomming one of my favourite games. It isn't too hard, yet, and it has the puzzle aspect that I enjoy in games. If you Tomb Raider, you will like this game. Oh yeah, one other cool thing about this game, is that you have an insanity meter. Some times it is more fun to be insane.

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